ipohmaliguy

Children Learn What They Live

2011-04-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.
If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.
If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.
If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.
If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.
If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.
If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.
If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.
If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.
If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.
If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.
If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.
If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.
If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.
If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.
If children live with fairness, they learn justice.
If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect.
If children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and in those about them.
If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live.

Very subtle...

Barely Alive

2010-05-19T16:20:00.000-07:00

I had a terrible first paper today. I don't know what to expect of it.The cycle seemed to repeat itself, I didn't study hard enough (either no mood, no motivation, too distracted, too 'occupied' or just plain lazy) and putting all revision to the last minute, in the end screwed up my paper and being unable to feel accomplished after sitting for one paper and moving on with boosted confidence. Then I will mourned over the spilled milk and tell myself not to repeat the same mistake after and the cycle repeats..............
I missed the taste of victory but when will my flesh listen to my spirit? I want myself to work hard so that I won't regret anything. Here am I, downed by first paper, still having 3 more papers in my hand. I really hope I can see the silver lining soon, being able to finish my degree at a high note. I am really sick of feeling defeated and useless. God, please would you discipline me? I really want to taste victory, I am a long lost guy. Please, would you?

L-O-V-E

2009-11-11T09:48:00.001-08:00

Love is a word which cannot be defined.
Love is a word that has no boundaries.
Love is something abstract and yet substantial.
Love is a confusing word though it is just a mere four letter word.
Love meant more than a normal 'I Love You'
Love can be experienced and expressed.
But love is a hard word to fathom and truly comprehend.
The affection for someone sometimes are mistakenly taken as "LOVE"
L-O-V-E is complicated because of its simplicity.
Love, a wonderful emotion
that God has implanted into the soul of a man.

Ipohmaliguy is stil alive

2009-10-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

To the cyber world wanderers and passer-by,
Ipohmaliguy is currently facing verbal constipation and severe inspiration depravity. Please bear with him as he is finding solution to his serious illness. He will update the blog when things are alright again.. STAY TUNED...

Awesome Guitarist

2009-07-24T07:36:00.000-07:00

log on to
http://www.handoyomia.com/1/35.html

Life of Mediocrity

2009-05-29T22:13:00.000-07:00

Felt guilty for my deserted blog.
For those of you who are wondering what has happened to Vincent.
Here's what I have done over the period of a month:
3 to 8th - Went back to Nilai to settle my University Application
10 to 11th - Went to Gambang, Pahang to send my sister to Matriculation College.
15 to 17th - Went to Malacca for Tchoukball Coach Training.
18 to present - Attached to UNISEM for industrial training.

In the month of May, I have travelled more than 1500 kilometres.
On contrary, have I travelled further on my spiritual journey? Some people say that Christian life is more on the journey travelled than the arrival. Some may not agree to this point. Anyway, I realized that I have been moving far from the track that I am supposed to walk on.

God, I know you have called me to a victorious life
and not mediocrity.
I have been an unfaithful child, walking further from your every day.
Lord, I want to go nearer to you.
So near that I can feel Your heartbeat
and hear Your whisper in my ear.
Lord, help me not to fix my eyes on things that are tangible
but help me to fix my eyes on You, Creator of the earth.
Deliver me from the confusion that the Devil has put in me
and the world of human.
I am really tired of being driven around in human's wisdom.
For indeed Your foolishness is way much wiser than human's counsel.
Lord, I need you.
Amen.

O How I Love You

2009-05-01T06:08:00.000-07:00

'When you don't get what seems good for ya at a certain point of time, who knows there is something better awaiting you at the other corner.'

This is a good example of my statement:

Introducing you to my 'beloved', Adidas Barracks TR8..
This is my third pair of training shoe.
Provocative yet not threatening,
Sexy yet not seductive,
Beautiful yet not just empty brains,
Comfortable and just a perfect companion to be with
through thick and thins...
A perfect balance between internal and external beauty.
phewwwww.....BREATHTAKING..

Review from the Net reveals: Perfect for any skill level, the adidas Barracks TR8 is a comfortable leather trainer with the comfort and support needed for any workout activity. A full-grain leather upper with textile lining supports your feet in a streamlined design. EVA foam insole and midsole plus an adiPRENE insert in heel provide lightweight cushioning and shock absorption. Rubber outsole for durability and comfort.

More to share after trying 'her'.. Oops.. Did I say her?

A Journey Well Ended and A New One Yet To Come

2009-05-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

I really felt sorry for this long neglected and forsaken blog.
Update on Current Condition:
I have finished my course in INTI, though I cannot say that I have finished my year two on high note, but at least I can say I am on track of reviving my study momentum. If I were to summarize my academic results in INTI, I think it has gone down to the drain. Thank God for this final semester results which enabled me to continue my studies in the U.K. at the university of my choice.

Oh How I Adore You

2009-02-20T20:26:00.000-08:00

Confused Guy

2009-02-11T18:27:00.000-08:00

What in the world are the difference between praise and worship songs?
Fast songs= Praise songs?
Slow songs= Worship songs?
I don't think they're a good definition.

*I hold no offence to those people who categorized the songs as such.
Very sorry if I have caused the irking feeling to emerge.
Just some food for thought.

Why Women Do What They Do

2009-01-10T23:57:00.000-08:00

I found this piece of useful trash from Malaysian Today.

Women are cimpliceated creatures, at least that's what guys say. We never say what we mean. We are mysterious, we get emotional over the slightest things and we're also unreasonable. Well maybe if you guys try and understand women better, you'll find that we're not that difficult after all!

Mysterious Girl
First of all, we're not at all mysterious. It's just that we give you guys maybe too much credit. You see, we don't feel the need to spell everything out as we think that you're smart enough to know what to do and what not to do, or when to do it or even how to do it. Actually this little problem could be our fault. We should not take for granted that you knwo all that and we should spell it out for you; but that just brings us to the next problem.

Nitty Gritty
Women are too detailed and treat man like they are idiots...well! This if definitely not our fault. You see, we figure that by being detailed then the chances of things getting screwed up is minimised; at least that's the logic behind it. But guys tend to think that they know better and don't feel the need to pay attention or write down any things inevitably, things get messed up. And then the woman get irritated which brings us to the nex point.

Nag Nag Nag!
If you do things right, of course we'd get annoyed and of course we'd express that annoyance. You see, we need to tell you why we're irritated so that you won't repeat the same mistakes although of course you don't listen so we get tired of wasting our breaths.

The Silent Treatment
Because you guys don't listen when we express ourselves, we sometimes decide that it's just easier to not say anything. So we keep our thoughts to ourselves and pretend that everything is fine; to which you guys would complain that we never express ourselves.. sigh

Breaking point
Yes, we do get emotional sometimes but it's not over tiny details. It may seem like it but it's just because you've screwed so many things up and we've been hlding it all in (because you don't listen!) that the smallest mistakes can cause an emotional outpouring. Of couse, not all guys know how to handle this and would just condescendingly credit the emotional breakdown to 'the time of the month'. Listen up guys, we may get a little hormonal but trust me when I say that you would most probably have a lot to do with why she's ranting and raving!

Guys, instead of lamenting on how you will never understand women and making it a topic for bonding with other men, try listening and paying attention to the females in your lives. You may discover that it's not such a hardship after all trying grasp the ways of the female psyche. Or you could just go on being ignorant and receiving the treatments listed above. Somehow I think I know which one would be the more popular choice.

JOY TO THE WORLD!!!

2008-12-26T02:56:00.000-08:00

Joy to the world the Lord is come,
Let earth receive her king,
Let every heart prepare him room,
And heaven and nature sing.
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and heaven and nature sing.

We sang this song at the Lord's supper last Sunday. I didn't feel the joy of the people when they sang this song. It was monotonous despite the joyous mood that the composer had given to the song. Everyone seemed to be solemn. The atmosphere of my church during the worship service had always raised questions in my heart. Were the member's there because it's just another Lord's day to keep the Sabbath holy by going to church? Well, I am not in the position to judge if they are truly sincere in their worship. On the other extreme, people who are from more 'contemporary' churches are so enthusiastic in their worship, they jump, dance and shout of God's love and awesomeness. Mine is the total opposite. I have grown up in this kind of setting and I have learned to worship God in the solemn manner and treasured the stillness of the setting more ad more each year
. But the question that has bogged me is " Why does our church lack the excitement and zeal when worshipping God? ". I am not asking for everyone to be jumping around praising God or everyone raising their hands. People seemed to be so Asian, sitting and singing seriously( now how can people sing seriously when they are praising the ALMIGHTY GOD?). At least, I know I need to constantly check myself if I am categorized into that sunday christian group. I start to wonder to myself if I have truly rejoiced with the angels and heaven and earth when I know that Christ the Saviour is born to the world to fulfill His mission. This year's carolers went to less houses compared to the previous years. Some people were disappointed because of the months of effort that were put in to perfect our blending and harmony in our singing. Nevertheless, this year's caroling has been a blessing to me because I was pondering on the lyrics of the carols that I have sung throughout the years. More to come in the later posts about my post thoughts from Christmas. I got many presents this christmas. Gifts of the Words from God.
THANK YOU, PAPA!!

Story of the 2 Banana Hunters

2008-12-01T20:04:00.000-08:00

In a not faraway land called Nilai, there lived two pathetic guys called X and Y.

After a workout in the gymnasium, X decided to go hunt for bananas.

On his way out, he met Y and asked Y would like to join in his quest for bananas.

Y had nothing better to do, so Y tagged along.

Along the journey, Y was curious why X suddenly wanted bananas, so he asked X about it.

X gave a piece of nutritional facts on food.

One banana = one big bowl of rice ( meaninng lots of carbohydrates)

Y again was curious why X wanted carbohyrates. X said that he wanted to gain weight.

The quest for bananas continued.

X and Y finally reach a supermarket.

They found little fruits at the place. Only a couple of miserable apples and oranges.

X and Y moved on.

They went to the shops next door to find if they sell any bananas.

X and Y entered a mini market. No bananas found.

X and Y entered the shop nearby that sells stationery and some electrical stuff (mind you, there were no edible stuffs sold).

X asked the cashier if they sell any bananas
and Y giggled at the back realizing that X was 'asking a monk for a comb'.

Again, no sign of BANANAS!!!

X and Y embarked on their mobile and drove to another part of Nilai.

As they were driving slowly, searching the streets ( not for potential victims) for bananas.

To their dismay, all the fruits stalls they passed sell no bananas.

X was happy to find a pasar malam on its setting up.

Therefore they tried their luck there.

Outcome: They found langsat, mandarin oranges, apples, grapes, persimmon, pears, duku langsat, mangoes and many others fruits.. but still NO BANANAs!!!

X and Y were sad.

X did not give up, he said that justice must be done for the petrol that was wasted before this.

They continued on.

When they were passing some housing areads with some vacant land, they saw banana trees standing around with bunches of bananas.

Y asked why not they just go and get those.

It was a silly idea.

X saw another row of shophouses.

They decided to go in and have a look.

They found a fruit shop.

They were happy to find out that there were two bunches of bananas hung at the shop.

Finally they found BANANAS!!!

ALHAMDULILAH！！！ PRAISE THE LORD！！！感谢主！！!

The 6-inches-long yummy BANANAs!!!

vincent the son of mr. chan is still a LOSER

2008-11-17T17:15:00.000-08:00

18/11/08 holds no significant meaning to anyone except some who have their birthday or their special occasions on this very day. But this day is the day of reckoning for me, the announcement of result for my Year 2 Semester 2. I didn't expect too much from this exam also. As mentioned in the older posts, I am tired of being a loser. I grabbed hold myself of some courage and signed in to the website to check it the resultss. I told myself, even if i couldn't pull up my average, at least I will maintain it. But to my horror, it wasn't even there. I have been and after all still a loser. Looking at my dung-like result, I couldn't help but swallowed my tears. Not that I have not put in any effort in those papers but I just can't perform. The paper of which i put my highest hope only turned out to be a mere B- (I aimed to get at least an A-).

Now that my last semester is dawning, I just could pray that greater things are yet to come. Final semester in INTI means final project and subjects that kept some student another semester in INTI.

Lord, give me the diligence and the faith
that you will help me to not become a grasshopper.
I am tired of being a loser all through my college studies.
I never know how it feels to be accomplished
since I step into tertiary level.
O Lord, make this semester a conquering semester for me.
Amen

O Sacred King by Matt Redman

2008-11-16T20:11:00.000-08:00

One brother chose this song in the night worship we had two days back. I am glad he chose this song although most of us don't know this song. The lyrics of the song goes like this:

O Sacred King
O Holy King
How can I honour you rightly
Honour that's fit for your name

O Sacred King
O Holy King
I don't take what you did lightly
Friendship instead of disgrace

For it's the mystery of the universe
You're the God of holiness
Yet you welcome souls like me
And with the blessings of your Father's heart
You discipline the ones you love
There's kindness in your majesty
Jesus, those who recognise your power
Know just how wonderful you are
That You draw near

I am much moved by the words of this songs. How can we truly do what You actually did for us? If I am asked to forgive a person who has wronged me or hurt me, I think it would take me some time to forgive that person. What more to forgive and forget? But the God whom I worship not only forgive and forget, but He drew near to me. This is the ultimate demonstration of love and grace. If only the people of this earth can do this to each other, this world definitely will be a better place. I am humbled. If a God universe showed love to dust, all the more, we, human made of dusts need to follow his example in doing so to people around us. Currently, I am dealing with an old wound that has re-emerged, I pray that God will help me get over this and to be reconciled to that guy. Amen

My Goliath is Here

2008-11-07T05:08:00.000-08:00

Development and Fabrication of Humanoid Arm Manipulator - part of the Robofriend research project.... Got this title as my final year project, truly breathtaking... Looking forward to lots of work in the coming semester.. Got to buck up and go all out for this project. Alhamdulilah.

A Total Mess

2008-10-29T22:11:00.000-07:00

It was indeed prophecy came true.

Trasient period before disaster struck. - 'Profet' Vincent

29 October 08
After eating dinner, I came back to my room. I took a quick shower before getting myself stick to my chair for some final touches to my revision for tomorrow's subject. Before I could even get myself going, I found myself being attacked by the virus of laziness and 'stress-free'. And so I got myself entertained by a two episodes of shin chan ( mind you, it took me on 14.44 minutes to finish), hoping that I can rid myself of the paralysis and can start off with a bit of last minute revision. After that 14.44 minutes, I am still crippled. I got myself to bed early, all determined to wake up at 5am tomorrow to study. I rolled. I turned a little. I tried to sleep but suddenly my heatbeat got faster. A wave of stress suddenly gushed towards me. After rolling on the bed for like an hour, I couldn't sleep. I pushed my lazy butt up and switched on my table lamp and immediately changed to study mode. Looking at those graphical method for velocity and acceleration, mass balancing and some vibration notes, I thought to myself: Gee, I know them. After a quick browsing through that whole lot, for about an hour? My eyes got heavy, it's finally time to sleep.

30 October 08
I woke up at 7.25am. I got up to wash up and had a quick breakfast. Off I went to my exam hall. Upon reaching the hall, I took all the necessary stuff for my exam, chose a good seat and sat down. Yeah! It's finally here. The paper that I put a lot of hope in. A chance to redeem myself from the pool of Bs for the past few Dynamics
papers I took. The invigilator signalled us to start and it began. Glancing through the questions, to the shock of my life, I found myself entangled in an terribly stressed up situation. What is this?!?!!! I don't even know how to solve this question. "Four bar linkage requiring us to find the two angular velocities and angular acceleration, later to verify it by graphical method." The strange thing is that an equation is given and it took me a while to digest it. Now when it reached the graphical method, I am unsure of the steps. The same thing happened for other questions. All my CONFIDENCE ARE SHATTERED.

Lord, I am a failure again. After all this while, I still need your miracle in my results. SORRY MUM, I FAILED YOU AGAIN...

Disaster really strucked- Fulfilled by 'Profet' Vincent

Trasient Period Before Disaster Strucks

2008-10-28T19:32:00.000-07:00

Bangun pagi,
Gosok gigi,
Cuci muka,
Pakai baju,
Makan roti,
Minum susu,
Semua orang suka hati..

I don't know for what reason, this song played in my mind when i woke up this morning. I wonder what happened to my pre-exam stress. I am not that prepared for exam this time. But where are those worries and pressure that normally come during exam period? I am worried that I am not worried for exam now.
Mum messaged me a couple weeks ago reminding me to study hard because she has put in high hope on me. I kept reminiding myself to study hard, but the spirit has just lasted for a mere two to three weeks before I tumble again. Was it due to myself yielding to temptations like FIFA 08 (that has been both a blessing and curse to me), sports?, movies (neh, I am not an ardent fan of movies), music all day long, experimenting some nice songs on my guitar... and the list of distractions go on and on. Nevertheless, here am I at the last corner before I come to my first paper in another 22 hours. Now, pray for me as I need to score at least B in both my papers or myw pathway to Leeds will be doomed. Thanks to my lackadaisical attitude that has pulled down my average to the borderline since my degree first semester. Now that I have reached this stage of my study life. Just one more semester before I finish my course locally and waiting to board plane to U.K.

I faileth not.

Pray for this two subjects of mine that sounded very engineering. Yes, they are.
DYNAMICS AND SYSTEM VIBRATION
THERMOFLUID AND MECHANICAL DESIGN

This Blog is Not Dead

2008-09-26T02:37:00.000-07:00

Had been busy lately? Was I? Just wanna write something here to let you all know that it's not dead. I will be posting soon about my recent updates.. stay tuned...Just in case you have nothing better to do, try this..
http://www.addictinggames.com/theimpossiblequiz.html?cid=YSSP
This is not a prank.. Try it out.. But i wanna warn you, it's addictive as it is stated in the URL itself..

My Country Malaysia

2008-09-04T06:51:00.000-07:00

[Orang Melayu dikatakan terkenal sebagai bangsa yang bersopan santun, bangsa yang sangat toleran terhadap kaum lain, bangsa yang sangat suka bertolak-ansur, sehingga diam tidak diam banyak hak mereaka di negara ini jatuh ke tangan orang lain.]
(extracted without permission from utusan malaysia)

These are the words that truly made us to be who we are..
Negaraku tanah tumpahnya darahku.....

Happy but Sad

2008-08-25T09:51:00.000-07:00

While God's grace is so abounding, I cannot help but woeing to myself to stop looking for miracles in my results... and here again, it comes. I checked my results online and I saw it. I was just hoping that I pass all my papers. The results was better and worse than I think. Am I confusing? That's what actually happening now. I am happy and sad at the same time. Happy because I passed them all and sad because my average is at critical level again!!!

Oh God, I yearn to leave this life of a loser!!!
I want to be a good student again.
Help me O Lord!

ENL 291.. One Paper Down, Three More To Go

2008-08-10T23:54:00.000-07:00

I just sat for my first examination today, which is an english paper. I have much confidence in this paper. However, my confidence got a blow when I read the essay questions. I have to choose one of the three:
a) E-commerce will enhance business.
( People take e-commerce as a subject, what in the world do I know about it? Maybe I am really lacking in my general knowledge)
b) Marijuana should be legalized for medical purposes
(Marijuana ? Now that's a good topic.. I only know it's some kind of painkiller drugs.. What else besides that?)
c) Professional athletes do not deserve the high salaries they are paid.----------------->(Thank goodness God provided me a way out)... Oh NOooooo, I just remembered that I forgot to put in transition words in my essay. Now, I am dead. Never mind, let bygones by bygones.

First paper down, it's project management paper tomorrow, one subjects that requires nothing more than extreme brain power,literally. We are required to swallow the whole of the subjects notes and vomit it out during exam. Another 'not useless' but 'useful' subjects??? Engineers also need to learn something about business too. For example: Balance sheet? Business Plan? Marslow's Hierachy of Needs? Ten rules of Brainstorming? Definition of Project Management? They are drowning me... HELPppppppppp!!!!!!!

Now sunday school songs comes in handy and apt.
Sing with me:
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
Smile at the storm, smile at the storm.
With Christ in the Vessel, I can smile at the storm
As we go sailing home.....
(Oh yeah, I am sailing back to Ipoh soon, after the exam)
Just three more papers to go.. USHhhhhKAaaaaa!!!!

Glory to God

2008-07-18T10:53:00.000-07:00

A worm brings glory to God by being wormy...
A dog brings glory to God by being doggie..
Man brings glory to God by being ???

Hoping This Week Will Pass Soon

2008-07-16T08:39:00.000-07:00

All the busyness and emotional stress that I encountered this week were a blessing from my laziness and procastination habit that was serious this semester.
Here are the collections of stuff I must accomplish this week:

1. Monday- English Presentation on an innovated product, Maths assignment

2. Tuesday- no class but have to rush the business plan and assignment for product development( all this were given in week 3 of the semester but I was LAZY). So the consequences- sleepless tuesday night, death of many of my brain cells, headache and headache...

3. Wednesday- Deadline for business plan, product development assignment and combustion assignment. Thank God, God sent an ANGEL that helped me a lot with my business plan( really owed this angel my everything), I managed to hand in the assigment in time. Besides that, the day has not end, Futsal For ALL (FFA) starts at 6pm till 1am today. I am part of the organizing committee. That means I will have to be busy again. No... Having combustion test 2 tomorrow, still have a lot to study. Really need to score this time as I did not do well in the previous test.

4. Thursday- Futsal Competition again! Quarter Finals > Semi > Finals... Prepare for Maths Test on Friday...

5. Friday- White Friday is coming and i can hear it coming. Hoping this week would pass soon.

Oh Tuhanku, selamatkan aku dari kemalasan aku yang tidak terhingga ini. Amen.

Am I A Good Son?

2008-07-05T08:49:00.000-07:00

Much thoughts have been playing in my mind this whole week. From the preparation work for the backwood's man cooking to the study assignments.. everything cant seemed to finish and they had a strong grip on me, not only physically but mentally too. But all this worries boiled down to nothing when I heard of this story.

Now there was a widower who had worked hard to make ends meet for his family. He has put in much hope in his children to change his fate. However, life has gotten tougher even when his children grew up.

His eldest son has always been childish in his decisions-making. He didn't hold any academic qualification and neither did he have any purpose in life. He didn't have a permanent job for more than a month. Everytime he resigned his job on his own without thinking about the consequences. The same thing happens this time round for his job in the supermarket. He got confronted for not performing his duty well. Out of his anger, he just walked off the supermarket and left his job. He didn't inform his father and just left the town.

Now there was another son of his, the second eldest, whom he has put in much time, effort and money in supporting his education even to tertiery level. He had a lucrative job as a qualified accountant. Even so, moral and family values have not sunk deep in him. There was once the man got hurt in the car garage where he worked. His backbone was hurt and he was admitted to hospital. He called his son and told him about the news. The son got angry, and yelled at him for his carelessness. He even warned him that if he gets hurt for the second time, he will not pay his medical fees again. Now here was a poor man, lied helpless on his sick bed. Bitterness and sadness both overwhelmed him.

Behind his bitterness, he smiled to himself a little, realizing that he still has a last hope of being loved and comforted. He decided to call his youngest daughter, the daughter whom he thought was the best of all, for she has been good and obedient in the house. He called her but failed to reach her. With the help of the nurse, he called his daughter for the second, third and fourth time. But all his calls to no avail...

I was very sad for the man. I felt ashamed of the children for being such ruthless lots. Not loving their father and didn't even care to answer his call of despair. After a while, i realised that I am no better than them. I have taken for granted the things that Daddy gave to me. The air that I breathed, the chirping of birds that lighten up the morning, the sunshine that gives warmth, the rain that cooled down the torment and the privilege of being His child. I have only been crying for His help when I am in difficulties. I have never to even care to listen to Him when he wants to talk to me. How do I love one whom I don't even know. He didn't need us to live, but He yearns to communicate with His child, his own creation and masterpiece.

God Will Make A Way

2008-06-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

I have nothing much to blog lately. On a dark but not lonely night, under a dim orange streetlight, we sang this song behind the hostel's surau beside the parking lot. God reminded me that more than anything, he cares for me.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my Guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
He will do something new today

Thanks xiu mei, sherene and vivien for constantly being the source of encouragement for me. I will forever treasure and cherish the friendship and the relationship we have in Him. Thank God for all of you!

VAN-dalism

2008-06-04T09:02:00.000-07:00

One not so fine day, a young man wanted to drive back to his hostel. But when he inserted the key into the keyhole and tried to start it......

Science ? God ?

2008-05-29T08:16:00.000-07:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, The ALMIGHTY.
He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and...

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ?

( Student is silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make Everything. Correct ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

( Student does not answer )

Professor : Is there Sickness ? Immorality ? Hatred ? Ugliness ?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

( Student has no answer )

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe
the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD ?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD ?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD ?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter ?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol,
Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son ?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes. Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.

( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness ?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light...
But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called
darkness, isn't it ? In reality, Darkness isn't.If it is, were you
would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how ?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?

( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and
cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir ?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?

( The Class is in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?

( The Class breaks out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it Touched or Smelt it ?... No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science say that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir ?

( The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir... the Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.

*It turned out later that the student is Albert Einsten ???

(note: sorry for some alignment problem)

Are you for Him?

2008-05-25T06:22:00.000-07:00

Salvation belongs to our God
Who sits upon the throne
And unto the Lamb
Praise and glory
Wisdom and thanks
Honour and thanks
Honour and power and strength

Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Be to our God forever and ever
Amen

In the worship service today, I was moved to choose the song. I don't remember what thought actually brought my fingers to this song in the hymnbook. But I didn't stand up to share this song in the end. Before I even move on, someone stood up and chose the song. I was really taken aback and God has proved himself to me again that I am not the only candidate in His list. If I cannot even follow such simple instruction from Him, how am I going to be bold for Him in bigger things and mission.... I wonder

Slacky Start

2008-05-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

I'm stucked in my laziness. Lazing around and not doing anything although I have assignment to pass up later in class, 10am at 15/5/08 to be precise and I am still doing nothing here.Sien.

Nothing much happened today. Third day for the recruitment week in our college. Spent two hours plus at the CF and frisbee booth. Suffered injury in my ear throughout the duration because of some people who don't know how to appreciate music. Just blasting off their speakers and the situation worsened when another company joined in with some Indian drummers going loud with their indie beat. Sound pollution unleashed its fatality as two more groups of uncivilized lots joined in the 'symphony of distorted wave', yelling their clubs' name... "Axxxxxxxx Club and Sxxxx Club!!!" Good day huh?

Nevertheless, all those cannot overcome my anticipation for Friday because i am KAMBING BACK, IPOH!!!

Something that Has Got Nothing to Do with April's Fool

2008-03-31T22:25:00.000-07:00

"LEISURE" by William Henry Davies

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

My English teacher in high school taught me this poem.
And of course, it carries not significance to me at that time.
But today, out of nowhere, the lines just emerged in my mind
and its meaning appeared so real to me.
Indeed 'A poor life this if, full of care,We have no time to stand and stare'.

Sailing in His Love

2008-03-31T09:01:00.000-07:00

I cannot say that I have triumph over this challenge that You gave me
At least I have managed to pull through it
With You that gave me strength
Word that gave me answers to life
Prayer that gave me peace
Friends that cheer me on
Mum that called in time
Tears that rolled on my cheek
And the so many things that made my voyage in storm worth its sailing
I guess right now I am still sailing in the sea
Not far from my next stop

Oh Lord, how little do I know of the word love,
Easy to spell yet hard to fathom its truest meaning
Simple to say yet hard to show
The word love that I say often times comes with
Selfishness, jealousy, envy….
All I want out of love is just for me myself.
Father, you created the word ‘love’
And you gave life to the word ‘love’
It’s because of love that you created us
It’s because of love that you let us make choices
It’s because of love that you call us back even when we made wrong choices
It’s because of love that you still want us despite of all our iniquities
It’s because of love that
You would sent Jesus to die for people who rejects you
It’s because of love that we still can call You Abba Father after all we’ve done

Merciful God,
Now that I have only a bit of the bitterness of sacrificing for love
Now that I have decided to let go this feeling that I never thought I would be trapped in
Let Your love overcome
Overcome my feeble love for this friend,
Let all that in me be given unto You
I really want to love You

I am broken, yes, truly broken
Lord, now that I am shattered
Shape and mould me O Lord
That I may become your instrument
Instrument that plays only Your music
Music that echoes Your love
And may this instrument of yours
Finds one that will fill its loneliness
Discovers one that will play with it the perfect rhythms of love
That glorifies You, O Lord, the Greatest Lover Ever.

You know all my hopes,
Lord, You know all our fears,
And words cannot express the love I feel,
But I long for You to hear.

甜酸苦辣

2008-03-26T06:23:00.000-07:00

I have always thought this post is rather poetic. My Mandarin teacher must be happy when she sees this because my mandarin did improve. :p Thoughts written here are no longer my struggle. It just adds another sad yet beautiful chapter to my life. Thank you for teaching me more about love and the reality of life.

生活是个跷跷板吗？当一方在高处时，另一方就必须在最低处吗?

生活是个战场吗？不是你死就是我活，都要敌人受伤才解决到问题吗？

生活就只有“爱”这个字吗？

但愿时间和神伟大的爱能将这都一一冲洗掉。。。

让我这破碎的心能痊愈。。。让我忘了一切童话故事。。。

永生大哥啊！你这一次真是泥足深陷了。。。

从山顶跌倒深谷的感受和经验一点都不好受啊！

堆集了在心里两天的泪终于流出来了，

希望这段感情就此告个段落。

神啊，救救我吧！

Ku mahu cinta Yesus selamanya

爱不一定是拥有

2008-03-25T03:37:00.000-07:00

如果结局真是如此，我诚心祝福你们。。。

爱你也是一股压力

2008-03-23T07:45:00.000-07:00

在这一刻，我觉得最好的－就是让我们顺其自然。
我对你说一万次的“我爱你”并不能解决一切的困扰。
我一直固执地缠着你，只会让你更辛苦，更加的喘不过气。
如今，我唯一能做的就是等待时间来证明一切,
让天父一一为我解开这一个迷。
虽然处在这过程的我并不好受，可是我依然会珍惜这痛苦但甜蜜的一刻。
可以说我不知所措，但我并不是气馁。
在这瞬间祝福你我，给大家个美好的结局。
结局里不一定是你和我，只望你开心幸福。
我并不打算退出, 因为我愿意等你。

Pork Rib Soup for the Soul.

2008-02-04T07:02:00.000-08:00

Life of simplicity can sometimes be complicated.

Spot the Difference.. Case Closed

2008-01-25T02:36:00.000-08:00

For those who are still wondering what went missing in the picture....
I introduce you the 'Mr Viper Switch'.. This is the thing that caused me all the headaches this few days... In case, you are wondering how much does the thing costs.. It is RM95 for a second hand viper switch and another RM30 for service charge( six screws unscrewed to replaced the thing back, assume x as the cost for each screwed unscrewed,therefore 6x=30, x=RM5) Its RM5 for one screw I tell you... Nevertheless, thank God I didnt break any more VALUABLE parts. Thank him also for this chapter of my life. Without it, I wil never know how much it costs me to be an adult. Yes, an adult! Just turned 20 this year.

Moral of the story: DRIVE more CAREFULLY!

Quietness

2008-01-24T09:08:00.000-08:00

I have stopped listening to that song which I posted few weeks back, rarely listens to love songs too . I didn't think of her as much as I had when I came back to college after semester break. But tonight, after a yamchaing session with my Ipoh mali friends, I walked back to my room. There was only me, alone in my room. Time began to slow down after a long and busy day. Quietness was all around. Thoughts of her creeped slowly into my mind. Knowing that this relationship was hard to work out, I wanted to put a stop to this feeling. I just couldn't bid farewell to this feeling. I have failed....

Spot the Difference

2008-01-23T00:47:00.000-08:00

Speechless me.. Sometimes we just need to be extra careful when handling old and flimsy stuff..

Who is to be blamed??

No one but me myself..

God, I know you are training me to smile at the storm..

But just why on something that doesnt belong to me...

Another PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE lesson.

I Missed

2008-01-22T10:40:00.000-08:00

I missed Ipoh.
I missed scouting despite the many difficulties
and challenges that came my way.
I missed my camping days.
I missed my parang, bamboo, mangroove, marching, gunny strings....
I missed those torturous days of punishment
by my committeees with my scout comrades.
I missed my fellow brother scouts and sister guides.
I missed the days when I loitered in my school compound.
I missed my schoolmates.
I missed Yuk Choy
(despite how bad people may think of YC, Yuk Choy still ROXXXX!!!)
I missed those days when I hang around
with my childhood pals in church.
I missed doing crazy stuffs with them.
I missed my church.
I missed maggi goreng in Salim's Corner.
I missed those days when I was just a naive boy.
I missed those days before I turned 20.
I missed home.
I missed mum's cooking.
I missed sister's noise.
I missed dad's discipline for me.
I missed Ye Ye's pamper.
I missed Ma Ma's cooking too...
I missed those cycling days in Ipoh and Canning Garden.
I missed the times when I don't miss her.

Guys and Their Egoism

2008-01-12T06:14:00.000-08:00

Is it fair for me to say that
guys generally have egoism flowing in their veins?
If the game is on his side, he will stay cool.
If not, he wil go bull.
He will keep quiet when he fails in his attempts to score,
but when his teammates misses a
score, he will yell at that person.
He frowns at others' aggresiveness
when he didn't realise he is a hooligan himself.
He thinks the team will lose without him.
It's sometimes good to give motivation
but it will serve no good
if ones pushes his team too hard.
Well, it needs not be true for all guys to be like that.
But those are things i have in myself.

Are we true sportsmen or mere bull-fighters?
We need to check ourself.

Last Days...

2008-01-12T02:44:00.000-08:00

It was some time between 30 and 31st December 2007. Usually for my devotion, I would follow a guide where a passage is considered for each day. For that particular day, I was caught in a timing which is nowhere. Close to 31st but 30th has not end. So I decided to just read both the days' text. I didn't get the time to do some serious reflection and making of new year resolution but those words from God really aligned me to His direction for 2008.

Luke 12:35-40- Be dressed in readiness, and keep yours lamps lit. Be like men who are waiting for their master when he returns from the wedding feast. so that they may immediately open the door to him when he comes and knocks...... But be sure of this, that if the head of the house have known at what hour theif was coming, he would not have allowed his house to be broken into. You too, be ready; for the Son of Man is coming at tan hour that you do not expect.

I was kind of puzzled when I read this, wondering why would God speak to me about this. Nevertheless, I moved on to the next passage.

Psalm 23:5-6- You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;You have anointed my head with oil; My cups overflows. Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

This passage made sense to me because for the past 2007, I never did realise this part of the psalm though it's familiar. I have been living my life on my own too much, too much that God that seemed very much in the picture is found nowhere. I have literally kept God in my closet when life could have been much better if I lived my life with His strength. I have learnt my lesson again and I do hope I will not step on my foot again in the future.

I retired to bed after doing my devotion though I still couldn't understand why God gave me Luke 12. On 31st, I went to the watchnight service in my church. People were anticipating much and the supposed- to- be two hour meeting strecthed on to 4 hours. The speaker finally took over the meeting at about 11pm. I was waiting eagerly for the message. He was speaking on the urgency of spreading the gospel. Things mentioned in the Bible of the end times were fulfilled one by one and we have known of that. But what are our responses towards these happenings. This message appealed especially to me because he cleared my doubts on why Luke 12 was given to me that night. God was simply telling me to live my days as if its my last. It made sense to me now.

Today, I read from Psalm 90. This are verses that again lights up my pathway towards 2008.

Who understands the power of your anger.
And Your fury, according to the fear that is due You.

If only I can fully fathom the depths of these words of Moses. Transformation would definitely take place. I look forward to exploring this year. A year which I pray that I can be a more effective witness for Him. My service for Him should be an expression of my outpouring of his overflowing love in my heart an not the otherwise. And of course, a new year resolution that was carried forth from year to year, Taming My Tongue, an area that I have failed time and again.

"Use your mustard-seed-faith!!!"

P-I-L-L-O-W

2008-01-11T08:10:00.000-08:00

I finally bought myself a pillow.. Yes, its a pillow. I have been sleeping in Room F1-24 without my pillow for 11 days ever since I reached INTI to resume my studies.

To add some bitterness to my cup, we had been having a natural alarm clocks every morning. At 8am or so, we would be awakened by a low amplitude with high frequency 'ting-ting-ting', sound of a hammer hitting on some metal thing followed by the thunderous noise with higher amplitude of drilling. The experience of waking up by this kind of annoying and disturbing sound pollution is definitely not the moment anyone wants to have in their life. Its one of the worst experience I have ever had. And believe me, its a routine tingee for me, well at least for two months i guess...

And now I have another companion to accompany me through this agony. I didnt have the chance to bid farewell to my loyal buddy-old pillow. My friend of whose room I left my pillow in throughout the semester claimed that my pillow is mossy. He threw my buddy away( cannot blame him also). There my old buddy went. I am wondering if he's doing fine now. In the junk? Life must have been hard for him too..

The old has gone and the new has come. I am happy to have get my new companion. Mr. Casablanca Foam(his name is written on the wrapper of the pillow) will be sharing me his dreams. I truly hope it will have a happy ending with me, not happily ever after but at least not like the fate of my old pillow. Anyway, Praise the Lord for providing us PILLOW!!!

You will never realise the significance of your pillow until it's gone.
-VINCENT-

RAIN on ME

2008-01-09T05:05:00.000-08:00

Tuesday 8th January 2008
ROUND ONE- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
It was yesterday. I finished my class at 4pm. I went back to my room happily because I looked forward to frisbee at 6pm. I prepared myself and left for the field even before 6pm. The dark and cloudy sky didn't hinder me. I am still very happy. But when I was half way to the field, small droplets kept falling on my head. I am sad. I continued walking with the hope that it will stop. But the rain never ceased. I am very sad. I returned back to my room with a heavy heart. The rain stopped just a while after i stepped into my room....

K.O! Rain wins!!!

Wednesday 9th January 2008
ROUND TWO- Vincent vs Rain..... Fight!
I am happy. Weather was good. I asked my frisbee kakis to meet for the game today. Around 3pm, sky turned dark. Rain came down. I still hope it will stop in time. 6 pm already, rain finally stopped. I went to field with a friend of mine. Same sad case. We walked to the field. I felt droplets of rain. It never stopped and it became heavier. I am sad again. I am really sad. No frisbee for me again! I walked back to my room. Rain stopped again. I am sad....

Vincent got beaten again. K.O! PERFECT!!! RAIN WINS!

*forgive me for my bad engilish* MALAYSIAN IS ME

Legacy Left Behind

2008-01-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

People criticized him, saying that he is a disgrace to the nation.
People condemned him for his immoral behaviour.
People said that he is definitely not an example of a good leader.
People despised him for his so-called despicable act.
People wanted him to step down from the leadership.
But they have forgotten that he is a true leader,
simply because he 敢做敢当(dare to do, dare to be responsible)

When I first read about the news of the DVD, I was shocked. Well, I know he is someone but still couldn't believe my eyes. He actually confessed that he was the guy in the DVD. He even took extra miles by expressing public apology to the nation. I couldn't help but felt really sorry for him for such a humiliating episode. I was jeering at him in my heart at first but my thought began to change a bit while, after thinking about it.

Mr. C actually prevailed as a hero despite what was described by people as his political downfall. Unlike normal people who would just blame things or involve others when they are faced with a crisis, he actually took the bull by the horn. I am sure he knows the simple principle of apologizing when one has done wrong. For a man to confess his shameful deed in a public already took a great deal of courage and humility, even a bigger price to pay when he apologized and ask for forgiveness from the public. He risked his reputation and faced the possibility of rejecting by the society. Imagine walking in the park, and people start to look at you with despise.

I believed people that have judged his misbehaving are people no better than him. Its just that he is more of a political figure and his actions are always under the eyes of cameras and mass media. As the saying goes, "tepuk dada, tanya selera", we should ask ourself if we are upright citizens. Offering bribes to get ourself out from troubles, littering in public places, keeping our doorstep clean by discarding our baggage of rubbish into the drains, smoking anywhere and almost anytime, backstabbing on people we dislike and even worst still watching pornography behind closed doors... all this could be categorized as equally immoral and corrupt.

I recalled a part in the bible where a woman caught in adultery was brought to the temple. The scribes and Pharisees were all angered and wanted to stone her ACCORDING to the law. Jesus settled this issue rather easily. 'He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her'. Those were the words of the Teacher. The incident of Mr. C simply has reminded me that God's forgiving heart is ever boundless and immeasurable. Are we lots that just bragged about people's tiny mistake when we ourselves are crooks?

Mr. C has taught me on how to live out loud. What viewed in people's eyes as failure is actually a success in the light of the Word. Its my sincere prayer that this hero of mine will pull through this crisis together with his family. Its my sincere prayer that indeed he eventually find God in his life.

It's not about how blameless we live our lives,
it's about how we let the blameless one lead our lives.

At The Crossroads

2008-01-01T09:27:00.000-08:00

Feeling is something which is hard to comprehend.. We feel what we feel but we sometimes just don't understand why we feel the way we felt...

對你有感覺 (Feelings For You)

我曾深刻體會對愛感到膽怯
I have deeply experience the fear for love
還好有等我的你給我安慰
Fortunately I have you waiting to comfort me
看你失落的臉又在為愛憔悴
Looking at you saddened face as love wears you down
我心痛的感覺竟如此的強烈
My heart cries out in great pain
眼角的淚它給過誰
Where does the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意靜靜等陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, standing beside you
如果說愛已不可為
If this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid to lose my feelings for you
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
I have sunk deep into this danger between love and friendship
进与退被愛包圍誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
眼角的淚它給過誰
Where did the tears in the eyes flow to?
傷痛的心也無所謂
An aching heart does not matter
我會願意靜靜等陪在你身邊
I am willing to wait for you silently, right there beside you
如果說愛已不可為
But if this love really can't be worked out
那我寧願藏心裡面
I am willing to hide it in my heart
其實我害怕會失去你的感覺
But in reality, I am afraid of losing this feeling
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I am afraid of losing our friendship
矛盾著猶豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to fall for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
进与退被愛包圍誰犯規都狼狽
Whether it succeeds or fails, love revolves around it
誰能解圍讓一切完美
Who can resolve it so that it can be perfect
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
And I fear that I may lost our friendship
矛盾著犹豫不決
Drowned in dilemma and undecidedness
沒準備跨越愛的界線
I am not ready to cross this boundary of love
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
Why have I started to have feelings for you
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
Trapped in the danger between love and friendship
你和我擁抱瞬間
You and me in each other's embrace
不後悔這曖昧星空唯美
Never regretting this beautiful sky of love
把愛放心裡面把愛放心裡面~~
Let love be in the heart....
把愛放心裡面~~ 把愛放心裡面~~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_yMGX6IVsoQ

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2007-12-30T06:31:00.001-08:00

Much has been done this semester break, one more day and my days in Ipoh are up. There are many things that I have done for these two months. In terms of my walk with God, it hasn’t been any better. I again see myself as the Isrealites that forgot about God when things seemed fine. I stumbled in my own world again. But, disappointment must be overcome by courage to change my future, not by my own might but with God’s power.

Today was my ‘last’ day playing captain’s ball with the Elim folks. I have always enjoyed this game as much as I enjoyed playing Frisbee and I anticipated today’s game. There is another side of me who still remembers a remark someone gave telling that I have not put in effort when playing captain’s ball in the Sunday evening (the taiko regards it as regular captain’s ball training, and of cause I didn’t know that) People who did mistake are told off on the spot, that probably gives you a hint of what’s happening on the field. I didn’t enjoy that spirit as I just want to sweat myself out and have some fun. Who cares if you don’t run fast enough or throw accurate enough. Well, that what I call not ngam channel I guess.

I told myself to play somewhere else today when I reached Elim. Somewhere, on the other field, basketball field… just not the Elim field where the same spirit that dominates Sports Arena, Klang dwelled. I didn’t know why but someone told me to just ignore other people’s remarks. So I joined in. “It was the last Sunday of 2007” starts off our game. I found myself in the same situation when I was in COPA IBA. My team players’ statures were way smaller than the other team. We played our very best although not with the right strategy. My pal I think lost his temper in the game. I didn’t know what happened in the end but the kiasu-ism in me emerged. I just wanted to score and sure enough I hurt someone again. Yesterday was Ah Ki and today was Bernice. I am really frustrated with myself. I thought I have long overcome this feeling of mine and I know I am lying to myself. Oh God, help me to become a better sportsman! I know I cannot go far with this kind of attitude.

Today is the second last day of 2007 and I am no better than the me on the second last day of 2006. One thing I wish hard for and pray for, it is for me to embrace the fact that “I can’t, God can, God will’.

Selamat Pagi Cikgu (Part 1)

2007-11-26T07:59:00.000-08:00

I read this from The Star dated 25th Nov, 2007, found the thought was indeed true and through.

Senseless Lost over the Overrated A
The first public examination for our children is the UPSR, which is meant to help our education planners assess the efficacy of their teaching methods based on the analysis of the results.

For the students, it is also a way for them to work on their weak subjects as they enter secondary school.

There was a time when this examination came and went, and there was hardly any fanfare over who scored a string of A's.

But not anymore.

Last week, S. Subashini, 12, committed suicide, apparently because she did not get the desired A's. What a tragedy for a life to be cut short, not for any meaningful cause, but for want of A's.

The many letters to the press expressing shock are predictable. So are the argument not to subject our children to so much stress at this tender age.

But what is the point if the cycle repeats itself?

We are all to be blamed.

When the results come out each year, be it for the UPSR, PMR, SPM or STPM, the high achiever get all the applause.

Even for the disabled who are highlighted, it is still based on the A's, the added line being their triumph despite the disability.

So the message we are sending to students is that those who don't get their A's simply don't measure up.

We honour results but we forget effort.

Consider this: The A student could well be the one with all the extra benefits- tuition, endless supplies of workbooks, and a comfortable home environment- whose parents would not tolerate school marks dipping below 95.

Meanwhile, another student, without these extras, worked diligently to move from E to C.

So who should we applaud? Think about that.

What an irony that the vain pursuit of A's is done in the name of education, when it is the very obsession that is denying our children the real meaning and love for education.

And in the case of S. Subashini, at such a senseless and tragic lost.

Hope anyone who have read this will drop in some comments for our edification.
Malaysia Boleh!

With Christ in the Vessel

2007-11-24T05:36:00.000-08:00

It was a bright and shiny on that particular tuesday morning. But the sky turned dark when it approached afternoon and soon before we realized, rain started pouring down. Well, it never actually bothered me much since I am doing my stuff indoor. Then suddenly Aunt Celine said something that tickled me. She told that we need to 'tei shui'(means look out for water), because Jalan Kuching, Canning Garden is prone to be flooded if the rain never stop. I didn't take it seriously of course and I even replied it would be nice if I brought along a fishing rod during the flood. Before i could even dream of fishing in the 'sea'. My imagination was cut off with an alarming voice from another colleague shouting: 'zam shui'(flood) ar!! At that moment, I was having mixed feeling, happy(flood!! wee... cause i never drove or cycled to work that day)+ sad(didnt know what time I can go back after work)+excited(first flood i have experienced)+speechless(knowing that my workplace can actually be flooded)+calm(hakuna mattata)+amazed(wondered at the magnificent sight of Jln Kuching becoming Selat Kuching, if you get what i mean)....

Red Alert! Everyone who parked their car outside ran out without much thought to save their car. Mind you, the flood is knee deep.

Unfortunately, our lady boss' kancil got flooded inside. After parking the car into the house compound, she tried emptying the water that flowed into her driver seat. Nissan 120y was half drowned and we had to push it into the centre's compound. 1 lad and 2 ladies managed to save the car from the wrath of the floodwater. Other
3 cars flee for their lives. That's not the end of the episode.

And so, we waited for the water to subside. It took close to one hour for the water to flow away. I was glad that it was finally over. But, we are faced with another challenge( i called it). The green kancil was stuck in the field. Wan Wai and I tried to push the car out but it was futile. Haiz, poor car.. To cut things short, we got the car out with the help of the man and a car cable.

Lessons learned:

-Flood during Noah's time is not small. So don't fool around.

-Faithful God is always there.

-Friend in need is a friend indeed.

-Fishing in the flood is not a good idea.

-Frantic approach never helps, calmness does.

When blessings pour out and darkness closes in, still i will turn to praise.. those are the words the song Blessed be the Name of the Lord. Are we like that ? We are inviting challenges when we are echoing the words in the lyrics of the song.

With Christ in the Vessel, we can smile at the storm.....

Maths: Truth or Dare?

2007-10-31T19:35:00.000-07:00

Ever since i stepped into my course-ME, maths didnt really make sense to me.. what? convergence series, Laplace transform, Fourier series etc.. Everytime I look at the tutorial, I felt the intimidation and again it never make sense to me.. By the way, I am only in my second semester of my first year.. Still a long way to go before i graduate.. Yes, its a long long way.. Especially for my maths, long long long and long solution(esp. Fourier series)-no messing up with your signs(+ and - will make a big difference) Well, here's what I did the night before my maths paper.

7.00 to 8.30
Watched 'journey to the west' drama series and dinner (release stress),
Shower time
8.30 to 10++pm
Did the past year exam papers
and a lil bit of R&R everytime i see 'hopeless' question
10++ to 11.00pm
Fifa 08 TIME (to give myself an imaginary success).. Barcelona FC ruleZZZZ!!!
11.00 -12.30pm
Get back to finish my last paper and do some last minute revision..
12.30-1++am
Filled my growling stomach with 'twiggies' and a hot milo.. Yum Yum... Brush teeeth
1.30am
Sleep time
6.30am
Alarm Clock Kacau already.. Woke up and didnt snooze it.. Changed the time to 7.10am
Sleep again.. =.=
7++am
Finally woke up and washed up.. Makan Sambil Belajar(last minute glance again) haiz...
7.45am
Rush to exam hall
8.00- 10.00
War time

Well, Maths has never been an easy subject for me.. But ME needs strong maths and physics background.. so how? When i reached exam hall, everyone was already at their seat and ready to start. Armed with 2 kopiko sweet(which I didnt manage to eat during exam..just enough time to answer all the questions), one pencil case with stationeries of course, bottle of water, CALCULATOR! , my student ID card and jacket, I dashed to a seat and started filing in the details on the answer sheet. Said a little prayer. Exam started. For the first time in my life, Vincent found meaning in his study life(up to your own imagination on how things went)... HALLELUJAH!!! About the results, still not sure.. Wish me all the best again.. Gearing up to prepare for my last paper tomorrow.. Hope things will be like today.. Miss Holiday, I am coming.... OH YEAH!!!
*written 23 hours before my Merdeka...

Of Sports and Lessons

2007-10-24T09:12:00.000-07:00

This year has been quite a sporty year for me, having joined three sports events. Now here are the events that i have taken part in:

1. COPA IBA (captain's ball under-23)on 14 July 2007 in Real Sports Arena, Klang. Having been in the church youth activites for quite some time, COPA IBA has been quite an 'in' thing in my circle of friends. This event is regarded as one of the highly rated sports event where churches in Klang Valley and nearby area sent in teams to compete in futsal and captain's ball. Of the two outings i have made in COPA IBA, I can proudly say i achieved nothing. The first time was back in my Form 3 where i have taken part in football and sure enough we are no match to the other teams in stature and skills. I have seen the bad side of COPA IBA where people did not uphold sportsmanship in the tournament. Some even go to the lengths of quarreling and often times the finals will be like a war where people just want to take down their opponent without thinking much. I never thought I would made it into captain's ball team since I am short and I am not considered as the perfect player for this game. Nevertheless, just to have a taste of this sports and we just have enough people to form the team, I went into the team. Having been an audience of captain's ball before this, I knew we stood a low chance of going far in this event(though I know this is demotivating, but then still cannot ignore the reality wert). Sure enough, we lost all our matches. We are no match to the oppenent's stature and speed. Well, nothing much to say, defeat and total defeat. Everyone accepted with result with a smile and life is still beautiful. But from this, I truly learnt how to be a loser for Christ and I never realised I can actually lose a game so happily. Thank God for allowing this defeat for me and i managed to win some friends through this game. I have learned that losers for Christ can be winners of soul.

2. Inter Church Games(captain's ball) on 22 August 2007 in YMCA, Ipoh. My home church, Elim Gospel Hall initiated this event since there has not been any of this kind of event organised before. I am blessed enough to have my semester break during this event and so I got a chance to compete again in Captain's ball. YEAH! In the morning when I first reached the venue, i was told I am supposed to be the 'super -sub' since they say they are lacking in futsal and captain's ball player. I didn't mind of course because I just wanted to play. Just half n hour before match starts, i was told again that I will be joining Elim Team B for the futsal team had had enough people in their team. I am jubilated because captain's ball is still my game and i suck in football. Out of curiosity, i asked one of my teammate who is the captain and manager. It was the shock of my life when i was told that I am both the manager and captain of the team. So i was like " OooKkkk.. So where should I start? What do i need to do?" Without much mental and physical preparation, I just got myself into the field. After a simple warm up and discussion on our strategy and position of players. Mind you, I just knew some of my players minutes before game and we are in. And so, we started our first game. Being the most 'experienced' player, I told my players to stay cool and do not waste off chances. Surprisingly, we cruised into finals without much sweat(except that youngster team who seem good and of course they lost too, lol.. not being boastful here).. In the finals, we are faced with Elim Team A, which consist school netball teams player and a few tall veterans who are very much taller of course and experienced in captain's ball. I knew we stood no chance to beat them but again to maintain the spirit, I just told my players to do their best. We managed to get one point in the game and we were overwhelmed with joy( guess you know how good the other team was). I thought to myself, losing a game afterall is not that terrible. We came out second in the tournament and everyone in my team enjoyed every single bit of time on the field. God taught me another lesson: losing a competition is not a lost, losing your testimony of love during your game of life is utter defeat.

2 Corinthians 5:20 - Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us, we beg you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.

3. INTI Open Ultimate Frisbee Tournament on 20 October 2007 in INTI UC, Nilai. After a short holiday with my foudation classmates in Port Dickson from 18-20 Oct(6.00am), I rushed back for the much anticipated tournament-Ultimate Frisbee. YEAH!!! As soon as i got back to my room(7.00am), without much hesitation, I went to shower and prepare myself for the big day( as in physically- filling my empty stomach with a packet of Dutch Lady Choco Milk & few pieces of oat biscuits) Mentally prepared ? Not at all. I just want to kick some butt in the field. Well, having been quite new in this sports, I have nothing much to be worried about. Just that when I see a group of 'mat rempit' stopping in front of our field. Just got to know that those bunch of mat rempit that looked like rugby players are students from UITM.. Whoa! I was wondering if they are here for the wrong game. Come on, it's frisbee we are playing here. Guess I should move on from my lengthy introduction. Ok, here we go 3 fields, 8 teams and 0 referee. After the opening ceremony, everyone who is in high spirit darted off to each field and the competition started. 7 players on 7 players on each field. Everyone played to their best. Each of our game was marked off by a loud cheer of our team name: WILD HAWKS!!!(not wild hogs). Things went on well and we marched on to the semi-finals, though still puzzled by the round which we lost terribly. And mind you, the team literally lost all their other matches to other teams. Well, let the sleeping dog lie. In the semi finals, things went on serious and quiet. We were facing a tough opponent, those 'mat rempit' I mentioned earlier, 'Dynasty Armada' they called themselves. They are definitely experienced players and we can see good coordination and positioning of each players. We were trailing until the half of the battle and we managed to narrow the gap of score after getting an effective strategy against them. But we were out of time before we knew it. Our journey to victory ended there. I was of course disappointed with the outcome, knowing that I have to accept this defeat eventually. Mr Captain, consoled us and told us that we still have another round to fight for first-runner-up. We are now facing the second team of 'mat rempit' ( Dynasty Armada B).And sure enough, we placed our best forwards
('C. Ronaldo' and 'Small Horse') and handlers. I told myself, at least we stood a chance to win a medal. The strategy that we used was successful against the opponent. We were having a healthy lead and me and another friend who were outside were so pumped up for the game. Thank God, we were called in to subsitute some players. When I dashed into the field, I was all fired up to score for my team. I was told I am the second runner. "Ok, Set" I thought to myself, "I am going to score this time round". The game continued and looking at a handler who are near in front of me, I signalled him and ran all out to an empty spot i saw in the scoring zone. He flew the frisbee swiftly right towards me and I scored that one point. I was overwhelmed with joy. That game ended with a memorable moment. Our team and the 'mat rempits' gathered in a circle and captains from each team gave their words. I can see friendship, warmth and unity in the players' eyes. On the count of three, we cheered "ULTIMATE" to the loudest. It was indeed a muhibbah time where three main races of Malaysia were in that circle cheering on for the Ultimate Sport. Result of the tournament was as follows: Flying Naan(champion), Dynasty Armada A(silver) & WILD HAWK!!!(bronze).

One most important thing I learnt from frisbee--- Spirit of the Game we call it. No referees were there to stop the game whenever a foul is commited or whenever a players tackle another player too agressively. Ultimate players can call for 'foul' and they are free to discuss about the foul called until consensus is reached. Not neglecting the safety of other player and upholding sportsmanship in the game-- that is exactly what I saw throughout the tournament. This is definitely the Ultimate sport.

I start to recollect my thoughts of the bad side of human in the sports arena. I still remember vividly the roughness and 'ferocity' of people whom I have played with. I can recall moments when hatred and anger were in the eyes of players to beat their opponent. There was a guy who stood outside a field and he shouted to the players on field, 'I will beat you up if you all don't start running'. A friend of mine said, "I will never ever come back to this tournament again". Is that good testimony of God's people? Are we playing a game of friendship and sportsmanship? Will God be approved of our way when we let our ugly side take over? Most important of all, are we true image of Christ? Or can i say, are we mirroring the evil one in our life. I am sure some of you can identify with me these scenes of disgrace, when the old nature of man controls their mind again. Take heed my siblings in Christ, let us not spoil God's perfect love story.

"I try to find common ground with everyone so that I might bring them to Christ. I do all this to spread the Good News, and in doing so I enjoy its blessings"

1 Cor. 9:22-23

Do we truly act according to the above Scripture? This blog was not written to offend anyone but served to remind us of our responsibilities and testimony that we bear for Christ.

All for Christ's sake. Amen.

Random Lines

2007-10-14T08:58:00.000-07:00

Having raya break now, but the poor me is stuck in this student-deserted town of Nilai. I never know the feeling of being alone until this one week long holiday, although its only two days since my roommate left for his hometown. I have told myself this week is a week that I am going to use to get my discipline in lifestyle back. I have not been having a healthy lifestyle ever since i enter college. Staying in the campus where people have no day or night, 1 am is considered as early and 12 midnite as the beginning of night. I need to reformat myself, reset my BIOS, and reinstall a new operating system and a brand new antivirus software.
This holiday was not greatly anticipated by me, though the balik kampung song is on air since raya break creeps in. Homesickness is budding and i wanted to go home badly. I missed everything in ipoh, Elim's people, captain's ball, ipoh food(kuey teow soup, nga choi gai, heong peah, grandma's and mummy's dish ....), the 4Cs( my buddies), ipoh air, ipoh's everything. Not forgetting too, the 72nd Kinta Scout Troop, of which i have shed my tears, sweat and blood with throughout my five years of secondary school life. In the ninth month of the year, day 22, i haven finally met my long lost scout comrades :tan hock(egg shell in cantonese), samy(by the way its a he), horng tzong(the cook), dai dan wong (big butt...lol), ah jiao(no explanation needed)and chun leong. Took a simple brunch with them in old town, talking back about the yesteryears and savouring those tough but memorable days of holding the parang and sleeping on bamboo.
Wah, i am beginning to miss those scouting days again.. T.T
I am approaching the end of semester and guess its the right time i evalute and reflect on what I have achieved and screwed up this time. Well, it has been a challenging semester for me. Having lots of emotional and spiritual battle going on. My body has been fighting aggresively wif the Spirit. I will leave that for the next blog. Not too long ago, i have also faced with a conflict that I have with a friend of mine. Got scolded by him and never talk to him for days ever since that moment. Thousand of feelings and thoughts crossed my mind, just then i realised how hard is it to forgive and forget. After being hurt emotionally, i really find no reason for me to talk to him. Coincidentally, the day after the incident, we had our CF meeting and the topic shared was 'Friendship: God, Me & Others". It was a total disaster as I listened to the speaker. Everything seems to be targeted at me. I knew even before that I should forget the person and reconcile with him but its just hard. I struggled even to talk to him, what more apologizing. I talked to myself and God a lot the few days I launched cold war on him. I told myself to chill and just settle the issue but things just got tensed up the minute i see him and i don't think that i m in the wrong, egoism sneaked in. And so i just left the decision of settling the issue to another day. Finally, the special day came, I have promised myself to take the bull by the horn that day because i know birthday joy would not be complete if this things is not resolved. Before even 12am approaches, i have already thought of what to tell him in my message of reconcilation. Sure enough, i sent the message immediately when 22nd steps in. Till now, I am still uncertain of what is playing in the mind of my friend but I have done my part and I thank God for a road well taken. I knew I did the right thing.
Guess I should move on to something that I am proud of and happy with this semester. After COPA IBA, I got to know a few of the Frisbee folks. Regretting that I have not join the athletic teams during high school days and not excelling in any sports, I decide to try out frisbee. Being a person who is not very good with my hands, I really was slow in getting the right angle and skill to fly the frisbee the right way. But gradually, i began to get technique and started to enjoy it. Though till now, I still suck in frisbee but at least out of 10 times of throwing the disc i got 4 times right. At that moment, i still never took the sports seriously. But after a few weeks, the seniors announced that they will be selecting people into the team to represent INTI in a coming tournament. I began to take things a bit more seriously, but knowing my own skill and limited amount of experience, I told myself not to hurry and take things easy. After a few weeks of training and scouting around for potential players by the senior members, they came out with the list. At the spur of the moment, nothing actually bothered me but realising the inner self of me who yearns to prove something to myself, i was telling myself again to chill. Surprisingly, my name was announced and i got into the team. Spontaneous jubilance was felt and I truly was happy with it. Now, it's six days left before the INTI Open Frisbee Tournament. I am preparing myself mentally and emotionally before the big day. Thank God for this great oppurntunity to at least have something to achieve in sports and knowing so many new friends.
Lord , grant me the strength of living according to Your will. Amen.